Leave one night

2007-02-18T00:57:00.000+08:00

Diana Kaswadi sucks): She didn't come over in the end because her dad didn't allow because naughty girl went out earlier on already.TSKTSK.And now she's away in msia.Btw,cheer up sweets<33

I'm scared to lose one more friend.Please,tell me it's not you.I know I've not been the most fantastic friend but hey c'mon cut me some slack.I've only known you for about 4 months.You don't expect me to know everything about you and everyday BUT I am learning more and more things about you and I'm understanding you better.So please,tell me this friendship is not gonna fade because I love you!=)

Auntie Nora and Uncle Roberto are properly now 1 hour into their flight and on their way to Frankfurt!Which they will then later transit and then go on to Budapest!ZOMG,So not fair))): I want to take an aeroplane as well and go to Budapest)))):

I'm very bored and tired..
so...
GOODNIGHT:D

THE LOVE

2007-02-17T11:20:00.000+08:00

Tuition!In!2!Hours!Time!):
Not looking forward to it actually.Because because!It's E Math and A Math and plus,I'm not exactly in my mood to think.Hehehehe:D And the last 2 lessons has been so demoralizing because I cannot do Circular Measure and Trigo&Identities for nuts while Eileen is sitting there doing it in a breeze.Frustrating!

My!Aunt!Is!Going!Budapest!With!Her!Swedish!Husband!):
I want to go to): I think Hungary would be a a place I'd love to go because for one I love the historic sites and I'm a sucker for those things.Plus!If I'd rather travel with them since my uncle is Swedish and he can speak their language!They're going for 10 days to meet the relatives there and blablabla..She better bring back something nice other than Paprika which is well-known in Hungary.Hahahaha(:

Diana!Kaswadi!Is!Coming!Over!Later!(:
Yayy:DThis should be fun.I wonder if she is really gonna do her math stuff here or would she just be stoning and fooling around just like the other time when I was at her place.Huhuhu.

I!Need!To!Play!Pool!(:
I have this urge to play pool.
DAMN.
I must let Mikoh teach me her way.Cause she's fucking good laaaaaaaaa!

Have you noticed my style of blogging?
Hahahaha.
Randomness

HELLO BEAUTIFUL WORLD

2007-02-16T21:24:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY to those celebrating:D

Today!I!Finished!School!At!1000HRS!:D
Hahaha,I felt like rubbing into you suckers who finished school as per normal.Hehe:] Don't mind me will ya?:D

Couldn't meet up with Saz and Lina today though.Tenet):

In the morning,I wasn't in my best of mood and was like whining it to Nisz.I really felt like shit and I wanted to punch her*(no,not Nisz la!) in her* face.If I was close enough,I would have!Then at Redhill,I saw Gadis:D:D So I told her to wait with me for Mikoh.And 3/4 of Royals walked to school together.Oh the awesome times(: I miss everything about last year,btw.I'll talk about that some other time.Then reached school concert blablablabla.FAST FORWARD!

Decided to watch Ghost Rider with Mikoh.Mikoh says,Nicholas Cage is old but still fuckable.HAHAHA:P Cabbed to cineleisure with Siew Ling and Si Jing.Had lunch with them at LJS.I think Siew Ling's hilarious!She's scared of birds and balls.HAHAHA.Watched ghost rider together with Mikoh,Yun Heng,Debbie,Shona and Narmatha.Everything was not planned!

I LOVE GHOST RIDER<333333333333333333333333333333333333333
Hehhh:D

After that,Yun Heng decided to go play pool.So went to Meridian.I wanted to play at first but upon seeing Xiaoyun's,Debbie's and Mikoh's skill I decided to just watch together with Shona and Narmy.Hahahaha.Xiaoyun's damn amusinggggggggggg:D Hehh.

Then blablablabla.Fast Forward!

I'M HOME:D

Btw,I think horoscopes are scary.They're always so true.Today my horoscope says...

Gemini:
It isn't hard to hold on to your morals and ideals when you have great people supporting every step you take. Rally your dearest friends today and do something fun. Remind yourself how lucky you are to have these people in your life -- doing so will enable all these people to realize how lucky they are to have you in their lives! Do not concern yourself with solving major problems or disputes today. Just live and let live.

Over You but Still Love You!

2007-02-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

I am in my brightest mood.

I thought through things and I've made up my mind.I'd choose the most wonderful friendship with you rather than falling for you and being awkward and all:] In simple terms,I'm over you and now I can be myself around you.Kukuhead,I Am:D

I hope I'm right with my decision and I hope I stick to it.Marion and Mikoh did knock some sense into my head.So yes:D

Tomorrow is CNY celebration.School finishes at 10am.I'm meeting Lynx♥ at 2pm.Nenek lina is coming:D:D:D OH YEAHHHH.

Meeting Mikoh in the morn.Whoopeedeedoodaaa.I miss that bitch.
MUAHAHAHA.

OKAY I'M OFF:D

Back To School:D

2007-02-14T21:25:00.000+08:00

CLICK
This video is hilarious.Mainly for malays la.Cause some parts of the song is in malay.Hehh.

I!Am!Going!To!School!Tomorrow!I bet Tay Xueli already misses me:D HAHAHAHA.And randee.and marion.and mikoh.and gadis.and syira.and EVERYBODYYYYYYYY:D

I suddenly thought of Daniel.
I MISS DANIEL!!!

~~I miss the smelly girl with the stolen tiara=/~~

Sweetest Joy:]

2007-02-14T13:13:00.000+08:00

Did I loved you a little too late?

I didn't go to school today)))))): So I didn't take my english,malay and social studies paper.Fever,sore throat and flu.Just wonderful>:( Angry angry angry.I really miss school actually.REALLY.

I need someone to talk to but just don't know who to turn to.My only choice is you.Even if it hurts when I tell you about it,you're the only option I've got because you know me most and you know about this most.Just promise me one thing,Don't Mislead Me.

I suddenly thought of Kak Hash.I dunno why also!

I'm feeling very random.And Nerice,congratulations for having a date with Mr Keong on VDay.HAHAHAHA.Maths remedial huh!HAHAHAHA:P poopoo.

I'm off.I want to sleep.

Study Date

2007-02-13T20:44:00.000+08:00

1.Vday gift from Diana.Even that weird so called MAGIC stone!haha.
2.What Del and I drew.Diana is Liyana's smelly sister who stole her sister's tiara!
3.Del and I part 1.
4.Del and I part 2.
Pictures taken with Delight.But I really was at Diana's house:D Hahaha.
Yes,Delight,Wani and another girl whom I dunno her name were over cause Liyana invited them.So Diana ask me to come over.

Went there to study for awhile.Not totally productive but at least I managed to understand A Maths for the first time:D The others were happily eating and I was in the room studying while Diana was preparing her vday gifts.Thanks,btw:]

After that was just playing playing playing.Omg,Diana is so mean>:( Kept tickling me.IDIOT!I poke poke you,you not ticklish at all.HMPHHH.Not fair.One day I'll find out your weakness.I know,ME:D HAHAHAHA:P Kiddingg.Delight ate TUNA with NUTELLA sandwich.Like,ewwwwwwww.YUCK DEL!!

Then around 7 went home.Diana walked me home.She got very excited the minute she saw my cat.But my cat is scared of you,loser:P Huhuhu.Then gave her the gift.Or gifts actually=/So here I am.Studying Social Studies:D HURRAH.I found out it was SEQ.god,I'm such a dingdong:(

Okay I'm off.
Peace<3

What made you think I was happier with her as company?=/ I think I'm completely misled.

2007-02-13T12:46:00.000+08:00

I've suddenly become so numb=/ I don't know what to think.I don't know what to feel actually.Hmm.

Thanks for yesterday anyway.I guess talking to you did make me feel better in some ways.But I really don't know where this is going anymore): It's still sucks if you really want to know.Everything's in a mess.

Didn't go cross country.I've got sore throat and flu)))))): SUCKS OKAY!My throat hurts like shit.I don't like it!!!GRRRRR)):

I finally finished my vday gifts.YAYYY.I'm a happy girl.

2007-02-11T10:17:00.000+08:00

When I finally told you,I guessed I felt relieved like a wholeeeeeeeee load of my shoulders.It's a secret between me and you.Wahoooo!I love you still<3 :D And yes,I'll turn straight.But shut up, maybe not now.Let me embrace this moment!HAHAHAHA(:

Nerice darling,cheer up<333333 it'll all be okay.Weeeeeeee.And thank you for being there darls.

I LOVE LIFE:D

2007-02-10T19:29:00.000+08:00

"a friend is more important and im writting all out,
can i share a lil more but will it be a pour out,
am i jealous yeah i think so,
wouldnt hide that from you,
coz all the things that you've shared,
made me wanna be wit you,
we're friends, and thats special and all,
it seems that now we're faded and you're closer to them all"
-Adapted from Rauzan's A Friend Is Better Than That.

I wanted to die when I heard that song.It really hit me hard.That's how much you mean to me.When Rau said that verse,I immediately thought of you.There's nothing I can do.Just put my hands together and pray that one day it will all be okay.Will we still be friends by my birthday?I wonder=/

*rhyming totally unintentional!*

awak,awak.
kalau awak tak nak kawan dengan kiter lagi kan,
awak tolong main jauh-jauh boleh tak?
awak jangan ader depan mater kiter lagi tau?
okay,terima kasih awak!

2007-02-10T18:29:00.000+08:00

I WANT MY NIKE AIR FORCE ONES)))))))):

I think the shoes are all like SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR HOTHOTHOT!I shall not rant any further or it will just make me so frustrated!

I'm missing you.YOUYOUYOU>:(

as im sittin by the window, starin at the sky
thinkin bout everything that's ever happened in my life
the rain hittin my face, i feel a sudden pain
now this empty space's starin at me, like i was on stage
and this loneliness is killin me, i cant understand
but no matter how i try to fight it, it wont go away
so, im startin to get used to it, it happens every day
the playground's wet, so the kids cant play
puddles on the sidewalks, so aint nobody there
and im left alone with nothin, and aint nobody cares
next second i'll be thinkin bout you and the way you left
cant believe you had to leave, and now we're no longer friends
guess its destiny, and it aint goin the way that we planned
every man's gotta face it, so i aint gonna pretend
as i hold my hands together, prayin for a chance
hopin that when i wake up tommorrow, it aint gonna rain

if the sun wont shine
then its not worth fightin
so im not gonna try
i'll just hold my head high

let it rain, let it rain
if it aint gon stop, let it rain

Bolded ones are usually the ones I'm really feeling.
Gahhhh):
How I fucking miss you.

2007-02-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

You lose one,you gain another=)

It doesn't matter.Bad things come with good things.I've got irritating people surrounding me.But I've got wonderful people like Marion,Saz,Nerice,Jess and Mikoh to confide in.Lost 1,Won 5.I wouldn't mind at all:D ~~even if that 1 person you lost is so fucking dear to your heart~~

Today school was pretty okay day.Walked to school alone and it was quite calming.Like,I didn't have to bother about anyone or anything.Just me walking in the breeze.It felt like freedom.It felt like ~~love~~

Lessons were pretty okay.E Math is such a bore.I want Mrs Diana Tang backkkkkkkkkkkk >:( Mrs Seah is beyond boring.I hope Mrs DT returns sooooooooooooooooooon!Bleaaaaaa.

Stayed back for CNY decorations!BEST BEST OKAY:D very very fun.screaming 90% of the time.Hehehehe(: Marion,Randee,Sheryl,Mikoh and Syira were there.So quite hilarious la.Sheryl and Randee left early.So did Marion.Later on got chased out of class so had to go down to study pavillion.Was only 6pm so wasted time with syira until 6.30pm.Went back with her and Diana.Hilarious like shit.but all's good.Diana,we're even.You gave me 2 kisses and i returned back the 2 already okay:D Anddddd,biler orang nak tidor jangan kacau.Poke me with pencil some more >:( Don't love you already.

I miss LYNX and BUDX!
And!
BUDX THOUGHT MY BAND UNI WAS MY SCHOOL UNI.
budx,you kekek la can!

2007-02-09T08:39:00.000+08:00

Things are not very funny anymore.Sure I could poke fun about people thinking I am together with her but hey,everyone's got their limit.It ain't that funny anymore,i tell you once again.I realized it was quite fucked up when tabitha said "i see you every morning with that girl.is she your gf?" it definitely put me down so early in the morning.like hello?anybody ever heard of friends?ugh,whatever.

call me petty call me silly call me whatever you want.i'd rather u call me that than have rumours flying around hotter than pancakes.

btw,
I DON'T FUCKING CARE,YOU.

2007-02-07T10:20:00.000+08:00

1.Trombone Section♥:Me,Nerice,Roslina,Hanis,Adilah and Jia Hui.
2.Crazy Moment Part 1
3.Crazy Moment Part 2
4.3rd Trombonists!with Jia Hui MIA.Nerice and I(:
5.Tessa,I,Nerice and Jia Hui.Suppose to be an all 3rd Tbonists picture but Tessa popped out of nowhere!
6.Tessa and I.
7.Wen Jun,The Drum Major
8.Percussion Section.EMO KIDS xD
9.Emi and I.supposedly a try at the EMO shots.Hah!
10.Nerice,Sleeping mode;) picture deletedXD
11.Marion,Rachel and I.My fringe was out of place.OH NOOOOO):
12.I and Nerice.She didn't want to look at the cam.I was seducing her.Hehehe(:
13.Drum Major and I.My favourite TANNED PERSON(: Haha;D
14.I and Diana(:
15.Trumpet Section with their balloons!adorable!
16."That's why I'm in band not ____"-Xi Ling. HAHA
17.I and Ying Tong!
18.Xing Liang,sleeping point.Hehehe.

QUINTESSENCE 2007 WAS AWESOME<333333333 style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic; color: rgb(153, 0, 0);">Michelle Koh Hui Shan,thank you so much for the chocolate.It really made my morning that you remembered!♥ LOVE YA! Trombone section,thanks♥ no words can explain what I'm feeling!

I was feeling very high at SCH.And Nerice is the best:D:D(and you better keep quiet about it k.if not you die!)she is so bimbotic!HAHAHA."[flings hair] jialat!" HAHAHA(: No one else can do it like we do.I hugged a lot of people!and it made me feel good:D Wheeeeeeeee.

Was tired and everything.packing up blablabla.But thank god Dad came to fetch.Sent Diana home first.Wheee.Thanks for the goodnight kisses,it made my day end on a good note.Hahaha(: You're so amusing.and happy guessing dearie:P

2007-02-04T14:34:00.000+08:00

I need to know.

DOES ANYONE CARE ANYMORE ABOUT THEIR FRIENDS?!

i thought a friend was someone whom you loved and would never forget even when you found new ones.i thought a friend was someone who doesn't mind being with you even if you were filled with a thousand flaws because they love you the way you are.i thought a friend would be able to accept you for who you are.i thought a friend was someone like YOU.

But I guess,I thought WRONG.

2007-02-04T12:05:00.000+08:00

I'm absolutely glad(:

I'm not at all in denial about my feelings.I just let them be.What's the point of denying it anyway?I like someone,so what?I know it'll fade anyway.That's why I'm not really worried about it.I'll just keep quiet and let my heart smile ever so widely when I see the person.Oh What Joy(:

Something still doesn't feel right though.I wonder.

Ho hum.Ta dum ta dum.No tuition today!My tutor's got some work to finish up.She takes up accountancy in NTU.-gasps-

You weren't you=/ Have you changed?I'm afraid you have.I'm scared to lose you.I'm scared that you might just drift away from me.You can have as many friends as you want.Even if they're people I don't like.But please,don't change.Cause I'll cry a thousand buckets if you did.I like you the way you are]]]]]]]]]]:

It's a very sleepy day.
I'm off!
CHEERIOS.

2007-02-03T20:50:00.000+08:00

BESTIES♥

I just felt like putting that up because I've not taken a picture with Jess for the longest time.And going back home with her yesterday was good:D It was bliss again.I miss the times with her in class.It sucks that we're not in the same class anymore): I MISS YOU JESS.You're my CHACHARD AND MEREPAK GIRL♥

Thanks to LYNX♥ for being there for me when I needed you.I really don't know what I would have done without you.Thank you for telling me to be strong.Thank you for sharing my sadness and happiness.Thank you for being there.Thank you for being you<3

And!Diana Kaswadi,If I lost someone like you I dunno wtf would happen to me!That dream felt too real and that's why I smsed you and asked you if you were angry at me.I was shit scared.I DUNNO WHY.I'm just so peculiar.I was scared all because of a dream.I was scared if it would be a reality.

Michelle Koh Hui Shan,I better get a date from you soon.SOOOOOOOOOON PLS(:

It seems like as if I'm making a dedication to all my baby darlings.It sounds like as if I'm dying.Well,I'm not cause.....

SIAODINGDONG SUPER HAPPY ERZA IS BACK(((((((((((((((((:
I'm so pleased with myself.NO MORE EMONESS.
-kallang waves
HEHEHEHE(:

see!TOLD YA I'M BACK.
hehehehehhehehehe
<333333

PEACE!<3

2007-02-02T18:27:00.000+08:00

There's never a right time to say goodbye.
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't
You're gonna start hating me.
Girl,it's not you it's me.

2007-02-02T17:48:00.000+08:00

How can I say I'm losing you when you weren't even mine from the start?

I don't get myself anymore.I think I lost ErzaEfiera): Because the Erza Efiera I used to know was a hyper girl who didn't let anything get her down.But now,that Erza Efiera is gone.She is now just glum and bad mooding every single day.It has come to a point where she's capable of hurting her loved ones.I'M SO SORRY,FRIENDS.I love all of you.I'm so sorry that I'm letting all these things affect me.I promise,Erza Efiera will be back.I PROMISE.

And just like that,I've fallen.Fallen too deep.
I'm not your everything.
So right now,I'd rather be nothing.

I'M SORRY):
I just am.I'm so sorry I can't explain myself.But I'm just sorry.You don't know how bad things are getting.

I need Diana to sing songs for me):

I

FEEL

SUPER

EMPTY

WITHOUT

TALKING

TO

YOU

)))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

2007-01-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.I cannot help it but to laugh at the tagger named anon on my blog.HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Have you any other better things to do rather than guessing whether I'm together with Diana or not?You are so free!JEEZUMS!I shall leave you guessing,wondering and pondering over it.I won't answer it.If you seen me and her around,you'll get the answer la!

People who are close to me,You know the answer.And it's like a DUHHHHH thing.

Diana,I rolled on the floor laughing my butts of reading the tag.HELLO LOVE(: My truest deepest loveliest love!HAHAHA:P Funny like shit k!

Today was an okay day.A lil sad actually.Ah nvm

PEACE!<3

2007-01-29T20:47:00.002+08:00

Today it was a rather okay though.Not too sweet not too bitter.Hehehe(:

Woke up at 4am instead.Only had 1.5hours of studying): Sad kay.Not productive at all.Then got ready for school and met Diana at admiralty at 6.15am.wahooo.early shit):While waiting for the train,I didn't know Diana's foolscap paper had super powers.It can fly.SWOOSH SWOOSH it flew off and it nearly hit the boyxD Diana best:D

Walking to school with Diana is very entertaining:D "You just want to hold my hand" HAHAHAHAHA.Diana shiok sendiri:P

Class was rather okay.Celebrated Xiaoyun's and Mayumi's bday.HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU TWO(:

Band was...pretty alright this time.Mr Chua keeps the mood up.Hmm.Sec 4 had talk.Hmm,I cannot reveal anything la horxzxz.Huhuhuh.Xi Ling came!!Talk to her for awhile.Wahoooooooo(: Walked to the traffic light with Shona.Then after that walked to redhill with Diana,Christine and Keziah or however you spell her name.Super entertaining:D:D Natasha is cacat.Wheeeeeeeeee

okay done.
I did my part on updating.

PEACE!<3 size="1">

your touch made me tremble
your words make my heart skip a million beats

Singapore VS Malaysia

2007-01-28T16:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,soccer match of Singapore VS Malaysia at the National Stadium made me forget about everything.Every little shits that I've been put through.I just forgot all about it.I just wanted to take my mind off everything and concentrate on the match.I made a bet with myself that I would not bother about my problems anymore if Lionel Lewis could save the last penalty.And guess what?HE DID:D So I've decided to leave everything aside.~~even if it's so fucking hard,i will~~

The match yesterday was good good good:D Eventhough Singapore played like shit for first half and eventhough Malaysia scored first and that made me angry,I say the match was BEST:D Precious could have scored a goal but big ups to Malaysia's goalkeeper,Syamsuri,for FLYING!He flew flew flew just to keep the ball out.That is what I call COMMITTED!Hehe(: I think players like Hafiz Osman and Isa Halim are THE BEST:D They are superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr rajin.Baihakki is TALL TALL TALL nak mampos!OH OH OH!I saw Hassan Sunny and I think he is hot hot hot.Wonder when will he take over lionel lewis.Hehe:D Indra Sahdan good boy okay.Tuck in macam nak rabak.GOOD BOY!

Soccer was all in all gerek.When Singapore scored a goal,I SCREAM AND SCREAM.When Lionel Lewis saved the last penalty,I STOOD UP CLAPPED LIKE CRAZY JUMPED AROUND AND SHOUT SOMEMORE.The atmosphere puts you in that mood.I mean c'mon 55,000 ppl yo!:D

I'm off.
PEACE!<3

2007-01-27T15:55:00.000+08:00

Wished I just told you how much I love you.
Each time I want to,I just smile,turn around and walk away.
Maybe I'm not too sure if this is all true.

I keep listening ro Rau's A Friend Is Better Than That.It's moved me many times.As in,it made me things about my friends.The bestest and the closest.Shucks.
"We're friends and that's special and all.
But now we're faded and you're closer to them all"
-Rauzan.
You dunno how much that line made me cry,Miss.I wish we were as close as before.

Today band was...(insert what you think I think)
FUCK YOU,I HATE YOU RIGHT NOW.Note:RIGHT NOW.

I understand Mrs Chua's feeling.She must be really feeling frustrated and stressed out.I really don't blame her for being angry at us.Shall work hard for concert and syf.Hmm.

PEACE!

2007-01-26T17:27:00.000+08:00

Just when I could finally tell you how much I loved you all along,I think I'm losing you.You're moving away.Too far away from me.Now will someone tell me,Am I being fair?I dunno wtf I'm gonna do.

Even if I walked 12387987235 times passed you,you would never realize.I'm that insignificant in your life.

Can I ask you a question and would you answer honestly,friend?Did it ever cross your mind that we are drifting apart?Sometimes I feel like you don't wanna be around us anymore.You'd rather be with THEM.It's fine.As long as I get to say Hi and Goodbye.You have every right to choose your own social circle.But just remember,you will always be loved=)

School is the norm.Yada yada.Wahoooo.And for the first time in 3 weeks,I get to reach home at 3.30pm!YAHOOOOO!:D Happy like hell.Only that plans with Jess cancelled cause she had tuition.And plans with Saz cancelled cause of me.Hehh.Miss Saz btw!

Hmm,I'm off!Wheeeeeeee.

2007-01-22T18:49:00.000+08:00

Collected EPs to sell from Saz today:D And I got a pleasant surprise as I opened up my EP!Rau,I spy with my little eye my name in your Thank You message(: It's a great honour somehow Rau!I mean,how often would you get it?Especially when you're a nobody.Hahaha.But,Congrats again Buds!

Anyway.....

BUY RAUZAN'S MY FIRST STORYBOOK FROM EFIERA!!!!E-mail me at erza_e91@hotmail.com,okay?HEHEHE(: It is 12 bucks!!

PEACE!<3

2007-01-21T21:17:00.000+08:00

I MISS LYNX♥
Whole day never talk to her la can!She's away in Melaka.While I'm here rotting rotting.

I had a lot of things I wanted to type.But then suddenly,POOF!I forgot everything.All my thoughts,GONE.~~just like you~~

I'm quite surprised by all the rides that life is taking me on.I mean,I really don't need it this year.I just want to focus on my studies and get it over and done with.Somehow,Sec 4 is really making my life miserable.TOO MISERABLE ACTUALLY): I've not kissed town(in my uniform) for months.MONTHS.

Wonder where you at.HMM):

Still,YOU♥

2007-01-21T11:05:00.000+08:00

I need to remind people sometimes that eventhough I am in 4s3 I'm not as stupid as you think I am because I just took an IQ Test and my IQ is 133.Refer to chart above and you'll know what range I am in.~~I'm fucking gifted:O~~ Tell you the truth I'm just as surprised.I have e-mail proof that my score is really 133.Look!

Dear Erza Efiera,

Thank you for your interest in the test at IQTest.com.

Your general IQ score is: 133

I am only human and such a test did boost my ego in one way or the other.I mean wouldn't you be flattered?Hahahaha!I'm just kidding.I am very happy though!That I am that 2.3% of those test takers.Even if I'm on the lower side of the score.I'm not 140 or anything.But hey,now I can walk around and say I'M GIFTED:D Hahahahaha!

Okay,I'm off.
I miss Lynx♥ and Budx♥ !
Hope to see Budx tmr or the coming saturday!
Lynx as well!
YAYYYY:D

PEACE!<3

2007-01-20T21:38:00.000+08:00

Dear Fiezie,

Today was just another one of those days that I was in major pain.STILL.Didn't go for A math and didn't go for band either.SAKIT GILER OKAY.

I suddenly feel scared.I suddenly feel like people are walking in and out of my life so easily.I'm feeling..insecure.I just feel it.I know someone is gonna leave me.I JUST KNOW IT.Don't know who.But I just know someone will leave me.How like that?Forget it.Just walk in and out in and out.

Today is the day Rau's or BUDS as Lynx would like to call him is OUT:D So happy for BUDS!Hope to go for his launch.Let's see if my schedule fits everything.Proud of BUDS la can.He has finally made it.And,BUDS will go far!<333 All the best BUDS:D

BUDS ALBUM IS OUT.TITLED MY FIRST STORYBOOK.12 BUCKS EACH.BUY FROM ME,OKAY?:D

2007-01-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

oDear Fiezie,

Today I went home early because it's that time of that month again as you know.I was in major pain,vomitted and my world was spinning around.Sucks=( Miss Malini was nice enough to lend me 30 bucks and asked me to take cab and go home.Best.20 bucks was enough.Wonder why she gave 30 la seh!

So rested at home.Was really in pain pain pain.Rolling around=/ Wahhhhhhhhh!Angry sia.so yeahhh hope things get better soon if not I'll be super duper uber sad):

Everytime I want to tell someone something,I just suddenly back off.And I just can't say it.Each time before I talk I'll tell myself "You have to tell him/her soon enough.Why not now?" And then I'll pick up the phone and just freeze for a moment and then just want to forget all about it.I want to tell before it's too late.Before it is all too late."Just speak your mind and everything will turn out fine"-Diana Hmm

Yesterday I heard Mcfly's All About You once again on radio after about 2 years!IMAGINE THAT.And I start reminiscing the times I would scream out songs with Bestiex at the back of the class.Sometimes together with Asilah who was crazy over the song Build Me Up Buttercup at that time.Haha.Then she would dance dance like some mad girl.Ahhhhhh!I MISS IT ALL SO MUCH):

Dunno what else to say.I miss a lot of ppl.

And I told you with a smile,it's all about you:D

For the first time,you came online and my heart didn't even skip a beat.That spark,it's gone.Gone just like that.

Love,
Efiera

2007-01-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

Nerice is an avid reader of my blog!Today I found out that she in fact knows a lot about me.Like how I want to marry a soccer player.HEHE(: And I've decided not to get the Z610i.I've decided to get the other one:D The two phones that I was mentioning.Yes,I'm super fickle!Don't mind me will ya?

Catched up with Saz lately.Best best.Heard from Saz that Raurau wants a BNF meeting soon.I don't know why but I don't even consider myself to be part of BNF anymore,you know?It's a little bit weird.But I know I'll always be supporting Raurau and them other BNF artistes<3

Diana is my number one girl~ Because she is the only one who bothers saying cheer up more than 10 times.And Diana please don't be ego and let your head swell.I WAS BEING RANDOM:P

PEACE!<3

I am over you!=)

2007-01-17T21:13:00.000+08:00

It was a phase.I was just going through a phase and now the feeling is gone.WHOOOSH~

I don't know why.But I am so fucking angry/jealous.I don't know why but I feel like you're trying to take over me.I dunno whether you are trying to be nice or you really are just that HUNGRY for IT.I knew it.I knew it from the start that you couldn't take it when I had IT.YOU JUST COULDN'T TAKE IT.Even when you were mad,DEEP DOWN YOU COULDN'T TAKE IT.You wanted IT badly.Now that I'm gone,you finally can have IT.Take it for all you motherfucking one.TAKE IT.Fuck you.GAHHHHHHH.I know I shouldn't be feeling like this though.

Yesterday,teared in the train.hmm.

I'm sorry if I was very cold you btw.Things were already shit and that just kinda got on to me.So I was angry a little.But just hope things are good now=)

Peace!<3

Mungkin cinta yangku beri sudah pudar.

2007-01-17T04:17:00.000+08:00

IT'S 4.21AM.
I'm up,STUDYING):

Singapore VS Indonesia

2007-01-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

What's good...

I went to the National Stadium today with Dad,my uncle and cousin,Fikri to catch the match of Singapore VS Indonesia.It was an awesome match but ~~fucking disappointing~~.NO GOAL AT ALL.I don't like!I am starting to enjoy soccer very much.And I happen to have great interest in our National Team=) Gerek abes.Though,I thought Player Number 2 played like shit!I think his name is Muhammad Ridhuan or something.I shall nickname him sotong ball.Betol2 punyer sotong okay.Friend passes ball,he just look,ball pass by then he run after it.By the time the bloody Vietnamese giants tangkap the ball already.Another time his friend pass to him the ball and he was suppose to kick forward,entah macam maner dier buat boleh tendang ke belakang pulak.Doink abes!Indra Sahdan was a benchwarmer until much later!When he came in,there was just that vibe.Singaporeans still love him somehow:D He is still terror okay.But sad la!The Vietnamese know he is a killer so all don't let him go so easily.By the way,I like Lionel Lewis very much!He is like this BIG BIG BEAR and I just want to hug him!HAHAHAHA.

I have great interest in our national team.I wanna grow up and have a soccer player boyfriend and then we can get married and make our own soccer team!HAHAHAHA.

PEACE!

2007-01-13T15:57:00.000+08:00

Good news:I am getting my Sony Ericsson Z610i at the end of the month!YES YES YES(: I'll be changing number so I'll be sending tonnes of message telling people I'm changing my number.

Bad news:I know I'll be called a brat for this year's Hari Raya for one reason.I seem to change phone ALMOST every year.I still don't like the fact that my uncle said "you macam orang bekerjer ah.tiap tiap tahun tukar talipon(you like working woman already ah.every year change phone)" His tone wasn't too rude but still it was not one bit of my liking.Whatever.

So yes,I can cancel one thing from my wishlist=) WAHOOOOO.

Wonder if Saz is having fun at Mandarin lessons.Hahaha.

PEACE!<3

2007-01-12T21:18:00.000+08:00

I need a new handphone,a new mp3 player,a new computer and a new bag.Omg,3 gadgets.No wonder I've been called a gadget geek/freak sometime back.Believe it or not,I go through my dad's hi-fi system magazines and all those other gadgety ones.Geek I Am!

I hope to get the Sony Ericsson Z610i or W850i.I can't decide on which.Z610i has no MegaBass for an equalizer though!And I was hoping it did!I hate it when there's no MegaBass setting for the equalizer.I don't know how people survive on $10.90 headphones when they're listening mp3.Like I told Saz,macam dengar tong kosong seh!(like listening to empty can) I've been dying for a flip phone): Just so sad that Z610i lacks megabass!Nyehhhhh.

I need a new computer as in a laptop.I've been dyingggggggg for one.My Tablet PC should most probably be in ICU right now but the owner is to lazy to attend to it.In 3 months,I've only switched it on TWICE.Wonderful right?I demand for new laptop!Demand demand.

I also need a new bag.My bag strap just tore and it's so sad)= My poor darling adidas.Super sad okay.Gahhhhh.I need need a new bag.

Okay I'm done updating!

PEACE!<3

2007-01-10T20:44:00.000+08:00

I MISS MY BLOG LIKE SHIT):
UPDATES ONLY ON WEEKENDS<333333

2007-01-07T16:30:00.000+08:00

Jasmine made me personalized rhymebook(: That darl is so effing lovely!I hope I get to see it soon!I hope to go collect my rhymebook on friday.IT'S GORGEOUS!Don't you agree?DON'T YOU?I know you fucking do.Hehe

Btw,I just felt like saying I have a very irritating 13-year-old cousin.Just felt like saying that.But yes he fucking as hell is irritating.Whatever.

PEACE!

And on those pieces of papers,I scribble your name=)
Still that POSTER BOY♥
;)

2007-01-07T12:30:00.000+08:00

I've been online for abt 36 mins and I've not seen a single soul online.Either my friends are really lazy bums or I just have very little people on my contacts.I'll go along with former=) Hehe.

Now now,I should go offline really soon and finish up my assignments.Think I'll start at 2pm though.Maybe 1pm.FINE,1PM!Lol.

I'm still so confused.I'm just so confused.I said the feelings will fade and we all shouldn't waste our time.But here I am thinking of you.When I don't see you,I start to miss.I start to miss you so badly.And it's a bit weird.What am I to do?=/

PEACE!

I've fallen in too deep.I miss you a lot,somehow=)

2007-01-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

Weekends.I hate weekends somehow.It always dampens my mood when I know that I have assignments to finish up within 2 days.It's always like that when school starts.Maybe I should start doing homework on Friday nights and be ever so free during the weekends=) Should give it a shot.I need a new and improved lifestyle then my current one.

I hope everything's cleared up.I really hope so.I really don't want you to stay.It gets me all confused and I start talking to myself which is rather bizarre.Will you just go away?I'm sorry I'm so direct but that's just how I want things to be.If you leave,it will the best.I will be much better.So will you leave when I tell you to?Will you leave when I chant "Please fuck off."?I wonder.

Am I changing?Or is it you?I don't know.But I don't want us to drift away.You're always be my treasured friend.Always=) Please don't change.I hope you read the post I blogged about.But if you didn't,it doesn't matter.Forget it.I trust you that you won't change.

Tomorrow's a Sunday.Time to finish assignments.

PEACE!

I want you to stay but yet I want you to go.I don't know what is happening.But suddenly,I'm over you=/

2007-01-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

3 days into school and I'm already starting to doze off quietly.It's usually during the last 2 periods.Today,dozed off for a few minutes during history.Mr Tham talks really slowly.Eventhough I am interested about facts,his body language and way of speaking just bores me to death.I tried all sorts of ways to keep myself awake.Such as splashing my face with water,chew on sweets,sit up really straight,try writing notes and even opening my eyes really wide but I just failed, sadly.How like that!HOW NOW BROWN COW?I keep hearing people saying that so I just felt like saying that.

Enough about school.The weekends are here and I should talk about something else other than school!

Get a life.One more time if you ask me for his add,you really deserve to get your brains fucked.You think I don't know what's going through your head?You think I don't know your intentions.Please,be my guest to steal him all you want(because I know you'll fail miserably).I don't really care.I do care,maybe a little.But I don't exactly care.If you want to get to know him,please find your own sneaky way okay?I don't want to have anything to do with you about "passing adds" cause it's so passe.If you ask me one more time,you will get fucked in your brains.

And you,I don't know why you asked me that question.I really don't know why.But I do know that beyond that smile,I know you are having other thoughts in your head.She and I have got nothing going on,okay?It's not even close to that if you're thinking it is that.If you want to know the answer,please ask her yourself.I don't want to deal with this anymore.Big thanks=)

Today campfire was...I don't want to talk about it.You bunch of people,please don't make empty promises for the band ever again.Because it leads to tension.A lot of tension.HIGH TENSION.The band sat there for so long and you guys don't even notice us going on with you fucking fucked up stupid songs such as shark attack songs and silly bomb games which usually doesn't have an end.IT WAS VERY FRUSTRATING.fuck it.Just because you are the organizers doesn't mean you can mess around with the schedule so easily.

PEACE!

I closed my eyes for a moment today and all I saw and thought of was YOU=)

2007-01-04T21:38:00.000+08:00

First 2 days of school hasn't been all that terrible.
In fact it's quite good.
But somehow,it just doesn't feel right when 5 people are missing from class=(
You guys are being greatly missed=)

Got better teachers this year that I must say.And!I've got Miss Saifa for the 3rd year!Wahoooo(:That means it'll soon be Malay lessons with her for 3 years(: Happy la really.Hehe(:

Tomorrow is Orientation Campfire.Looking forward to it somehow.Band performance,I bet it's gonna be a blast!We're playing some of my personal favourites.Concerto D'amore,Instant Concert,Japanese Graffiti and Big Fun In The Sun.I don't exactly fancy ABBA Gold because there's hardly any break for that song and it's very tiring with all the somewhat syncopated rhythms!Gah.But it's all good.As long as I get to play my Concerto D'amore,I'm very excited:D

School's been taking up my time.So I don't have much time to catch up with people like Saz,Hash,Lina,Rau and Sara Haque.Miss them eventhough it's only been awhile!=( But got to talk to Saz yesterday and I'm very pleased=)

That's all I've got to update!
Hear from me soon okayyyy:D

LOVE~

Everytime I close my eyes,I see your smile.Before I go to sleep a voice rings in my head and it is yours.I don't know why but I like you a lot right now=)

2007-01-02T20:47:00.000+08:00

I really don't want school to start tmr.I just don't have a positive feeling about it.Not one bit.But,I guess what have I got to lose.It's only 10 more months before everything is over.ONLY 10 MORE MONTHS,EFIERA.10 more months before you get to something in your life that you've been dying to do!=) I'm gonna take EMP next year!Electronic Music Production:D YES I WILL.okayyy,that's something to look forward to.Just study hard.If not dad's not gonna put me in EMP!STUDY HARD,I SHALL.

Maybe school won't be all that bad=) But I can't have gig dates as often anymore.Sigh.I'll be so tied down.Don't think I can go for January's Speakeasy.And it's a BNF one=( SEDIHHH

Heard class is on the 3rd level.Fuckkkkkkkkk.Tak gerek kia!

I'm gonna miss my other life when school starts.Sigh.It's alrite still.

I don't know why.But I like you so much now=)
Ku telah jatuh hati.

2007-01-02T20:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKOH!(though I know it's officially tmr!)

Happy 16th birthday babe.I really hope I made your 16th birthday special by surprising you.Hehe=) Thanks for being my gig partner,my cliquemate,my treasured gf and all that!THANK YOU.Now that you're 16,be a nice girl and don't be so sad anymore!Haha=) LOVE YOU ALWAYS.Thank you also for a great 2006.You're the best:D May we always be gig partners.Support BS baby!Hahaha.Local music!:P Hehe.Okay,take good care huns.I LOVE YOU.

On behalf of Alyph,

:D

PEACE!

2007-01-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

Year 2006.
Sigh.
You come and you go.
2006 has been one of my best yet worst years.

2006 was the time I met so many great great great people.Get closer to the people I never really knew.Like Gadis,Mikoh and Syira.and the rest of my 3s3 sweetums.Later in the year I met people like Sazlyn,Hash,Lina,Mikey and Rauzan.They are all just a lovely bunch=) I got to know of Beats Society which is wonderful.Meeting funny people like tissue paper boy,alyph.Going to the gigs were no longer as uncomfortable cause you get to know the people there better.It' just so great.

2006 was also the year I had glitches here and there with relationships.I don't want to talk about it.

2006 was also the year I met POSTER BOY♥ Kamu adalah hanya satu mimpi.Satu mimpi sahaja.

All in all,2006 is a very happenning year.2007,please make me a better person.

And Rauzan,
Congrats to BNF for turning 1 yrs old!Good luck to you boy for your future endeavours.You're gonna make it big someday=) I'll always be a brandnewfeeler.I'll always be supporting you.I'll always be here if you need help.Nothing will change!I'm still a brandnewfeeler.I will always be!Don't think that I've lost my love for BNF la heyy!

2007-01-01T16:56:00.000+08:00

DECEMBER SPEAKEASY PHOTOS!
1.My autographed DSK album(:
2.Saz and I were bored.
3.Digging the nose and kissing the sky.
4.Saz and I again.I was writing a card and she bored!
5.I and Alyph,Tissue Paper Boy.He is a tissue paper boy because he takes photos and advertise his SOFT TISSUE PAPER!
6.I and Naufal.Do not be deceived by this tiny one.When he opens his mouth,he kicks ass.
7.Syarif and I.the dude with the greaaaaaat voice and a greaaaaaat face.Haha!
8.I and Kak Roze.She is my ultimate idol(: I love her voice and she's a humble pie(:
9.Saz,Abg Imran and I.Abg Imran sungguh tinggi.Another one of my idols.I'm his PENGGEMAR NOT PEMINAT.Abg Imran thought all of us the difference;)

Videos are uploaded on youtube.Search my username "erzaefiera" for the video!

PEACE.

Thank you,POSTER BOY♥ Senyuman anda sungguh manis.

2007-01-01T16:41:00.000+08:00

What's good.

Hadz was talking to me and he brought up a topic about Daniel.I don't know why he did what he did,but he did.It's been about 3 years since I last talked to Daniel and I wouldn't mind at all catching up with Daniel.It's been a long time.It's most probably gonna be awkward to start all over again but what the heck,right?Hadz said Daniel feels kinda sad that he doesn't keep in touch with anyone anymore eversince he went away to America.Huhu.Maybe I should really start talking to that boy again.It's been 3 years.AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HE WENT BACK TO AMERICA!): His Kids United days are over so maybe that's why I never heard from him agian.Hurrr=/

I finally rmbed who I saw at December's Speakeasy!I said to Saz "Why does that girl seem so familiar!It's like I've seen her somewhere before a lot of times!" And then I finally remembered where I saw her.It was on a blog.A picture of HIS ex girlfriend.I kept seeing that picture whenever I went to that blog.Huhu.Now I know.

Did I tell you that Hafiz Krazie Starr is very cute!Hahaha!I dunno why he doesn't drop comments and keeps sending messages instead.And his subjects are always so amusing.Like "SUSHI!" or smth like that.Adorable.And I just realized he is tiny.Hehh.

PEACE.

Semakin aku mahu bertemu denganmu makin hanyaku puji dari jauh keranaku malu=)

Poster Boy,You really really make me smile every single time.EVERYTIME♥

2007-01-01T01:53:00.000+08:00

Welcome Year 2007.

Dear Erza Efiera,
Please do change yourself this year so that you can have a better life in the near future.Please study hard for just 10 more months and it will all pay off.Please do not listen to mp3 players/use the laptop unnecessarily in class!Please please please do not doze of in class.Please stop having your own private conversations in class during lessons.Please sit alone if possible.Please do not hate the teachers you are going to get because it will be your loss not theirs.Please cut down on your gig dates.Please stop using the computer for hours because you're wasting precious time.Please finish up all homeworks on time.Please do your daily revision.Please do all the things stated.If not,Please rot in hell.

With Love,
Fiezie the Alter-Ego.

PS: Make sure you do it because I know you're a sucker for the word "Please" and cannot say No!:P

Dear World,
I've come to realized my mistakes.2006 was a terrible year.More downs than ups.But I do intend to change for year 2007.I will,I have to,I must!I have not much of a choice because it's sec 4 next yr and it's the O levels.I will study hard.I will do my daily revision.I will submit all homeworks on time(Dear God,Please do help me with this!) I will do everything my Alter-Ego told me to because I love her to death(hehe!)

With Love,
Efiera.

2006-12-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

Today was the best day ever.Eventhough there were ups and downs a little bit,IT WAS STILL A HAPPY HAPPY DAY:D

First,A BIG BIG THANK YOU TO:
Alyph.
Syarif.
Naufal.
Freaky Z.
Rauzan.
Kak Roze.

for doing the greatest favour ever!Thank you so much for signing the card and I appreciate it tonnes!<3

BIGGEST THANK YOU TO ALYPH FOR DOING THE VIDEO.THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUU:D:D

Thank you to Abg Imran for signing my DSK album.Abg Imran is the best!

Okay so let's see how the day started.
Met Saz at Shaw House then walked to cine.Ate at LJS.I tried smth new and I regret it): Nyeh!Then went to find Mikoh's present.Got it already.So now she's got 3 presents:D Hehehe.<3 you mikoh!

Reached SAM.Saw Alyph asked him to sign the card.He is such a good sport.He was like "yup sure!" and he remembered Mikoh.awwww.He was like "OH YA!I wished her on myspace in advance".When he was signing Saz and I was like "eh!handwriting lawa!" then he teros "tak eh!" hahahaha. Then he called syarif.He came and he was like "eh mcm pernah nampak eh!hi!" haha.adorable kia.He also remembered mikoh.He was like "oh that chinese girl you always with kan" power la mikoh.Everyone rmbed you.Asked Naufal to sign and he was like "huh?!WHY ME?!" kwang kwang.

The launch was the bomb.Eventhough like we had to stood for 2-3 hours.But it's all good.I was smiling to myself when I saw abg Imran and Syarif perform.It's like so sweet you know?Brothers.Everyone go "awwww".Hahaha.

Then after that managed to catch alyph and do the video.Lingered around Alyph,Freaky Z and Syarif for awhile.Nice people.BUT!Freaky z's muker step scare me kia.Hahaha.Aper pape.Then asked him to sign the card.After that met Rau to ask him to sign and he was like "whoa!you asked me like as if you're not my friend like that" Hohoho.Right.Sorry.Heh.Then asked Kak Roze.She's my number one idol and she's very very beautiful in her own way.Love her!She's the best la k?Took picture with her and she was like "you so tall eventhough i'm wearing my heels!haha" :D:D kak roze gerek:D

So that was very much it.Took pictures with Alyph,Syarif,Naufal,Kak Roze and Abg Imran.BEST:D

Once pics are uploaded and one video,I will put it up dearies.
Thanks for waiting.
Be patient.
It's a value;)

PEACE!
December Speakeasy was the bomb:D

2006-12-29T11:32:00.000+08:00

Yo.

I'm trying not to be a cryptic person and so I would speak my mind and no longer leave you guys hanging with my usual occult writing.

I really feel like things are changing.All around me.It's been days,weeks and months and so easily people CHANGE.You see a totally different side of them.Usually,it's the ugly side you've never seen before and you really don't want to see it.It's really quite erratic and it sucks.It's absurd how things can turn out, right?One day you're great friends who always hang out and then suddenly,BAM!The next day you guys are all not comfortable around each other and don't want to hang out anymore.And that's the part whereby you start drifiting away from one another.Is it because they found out something about you and they don't like you?Or is it they thought they found a better social circle than you so they don't need you?To me,I'd stick to having very few close friends in my life.And,I hate big cliques.I never trust big cliques.When you have 10 people in one clique,you wouldn't know all 9 of them in it,would you?It'd be absolutely atrocious to know all 9 people that easily.I've experienced such things and I've learnt from my lesson.You can only trust so much people in your life.Why do you think I talk about the same people over and over again in my life?It's because these are the people I trust and I love.Love that is so sincere that you can't put it in words.It's blissful to have great friends that you know you can trust.But,still.The fact that some people you THOUGHT you could trust and be "friends forever" with doesn't turn out right still hurts.I've personally experienced them and it hurts so bad that it's worse than falling from the 7th storey(I've never experienced falling that high but I reckon the pain must be excruciating) As easy as they say MOVE ON,I know I won't right now.When the friendship lasted for 3 years,1 year for healing time is never enough.Actually,even a lifetime is never enough if you treasured the friendship a lot from the start of it.You may say you heal,but the scar will always remain.Can you imagine the pain I'd go through if I lost my bestest friend ever whom I've known since I was 8?"Move on" are nothing but 2 words to leave you in comfort and making you think that there will always be better people out there to be there whether you're up,down or rolling around.It is nothing but a blatant lie.A blatant lie and an unpleasant truth.

I feel good that I got something off my chest;)

Dear Great Friends,
Please don't change.You guys will always be loved.I don't want to move on if you guys were to leave.I love the way you guys are.So don't change a thing about yourself.You guys are perfectly flawed.

<3,
Poster Girl♥

2006-12-27T20:47:00.000+08:00

I cannot wait to see my darling royals<33333333333

BYE!

2006-12-26T16:44:00.000+08:00

I really can't concentrate on my homework!Even with my 48 tracks study playlist,I still cannot concentrate!Maybe I need 50 tracks.Maybe 48 not good number.Hahaha:P You never know okay.I'm superstitious in my own way so shut up!

I miss all my babes.I MISS ROYALS<3 Heard we're gonna go ice-skating soon.Hurrah.Honestly,I've never tried ice-skating!So this is gonna be one hell of an experience for me.Indeed.Hmm.

I wanna grow up and be just like YOU.just like YOU.exactly just like YOU.hahahaha.Truly random.Sorry,kids.

GOODBYE

LOVE~

2006-12-25T21:51:00.000+08:00

I don't want to do this anymore.I cannot live a lie.I cannot let you be demanding anymore.It is high time I said NO to you.It is not that difficult.A friend has told me so and I will do it.It is not that I don't want to do it.I really do,I can tell you that.It is just that you are so demanding and pushing me too far.I cannot take it.I'm sorry.I really am.Eventhough I have a certain dislike for you and that I shit about you all the time,I still am sorry.

Thanks Saz for always allowing me to rant.You're a great friend and a great punching bag.Hehe(: LOVE YOU,GF!

POSTER BOY<3

2006-12-24T19:04:00.000+08:00

Heyho!Hello(:

I'm in somewhat a good mood and I feel happy.I suppose that's a good thing:D I went to Sazlyn's sister's wedding today!It was at YCK.Thank God I knew how to get there.Huhu.

People I met in order:
Mikoh.
Saz.
Mak cik.
Lina.
Rau.
Richard.
Albert.
Mikey.

It was overall pretty good.Other than the fact that Mikoh left me all alone at 1545 hrs): After that just hang around with Saz.We sat down with Rau,Richard and Albert after that.I don't really know Richard and Albert so Saz making me sit with them make me felt really awkward.I dunno why either.I wanted to make conversation but just don't know what to say.Didn't talk much to Rau either): Nvm,next time.I feel very bad that Rau might think I'm avoiding him or smth.Huhuhu.

Mikey couldn't stop disturbing me about POSTER BOY.Geram.I felt like like strangling him.Huhuhu.

That's all

LOVE~

2006-12-23T20:40:00.000+08:00

POSTER BOY<3

Haven't talked to Saz online for 2 days.It's so lonely without her can): Nvm.After tmr she's gonna be free and we can talk talk again.YAHOOOO:D Tmr's her sister's wedding.I can finally see Mikey bro tmr(: Happy happy.Bro bawak date seh.Huahuahua.Dunno whether Rau coming or not.If he comes,Saz said her mother is gonna ganyang dier betol2.Haha.

I cannot wait for tmr!Gonna see Mikoh!Yay.Gonna see that bitch after sooooooooooo fucking long:D:DLast time I went out with her was on 251106.So long okay!Almost a month!Ho hum.

Popcorn Boy is looking damn hot okay.
So is Pretty-Eyed Boy.

Huhuhu.I'm so fucking jealous.Huhuhu.

BYE!

LOVE~

2006-12-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

Kit Kat is sick and I'm gonna have to bring her to the vet): Her tail's not moving and her leg is swollen.MY POOR DARLING CAT!Gah.Among all times for her to get sick.

Tomorrow's just gonna be another day.Skipped band camp today because I was rolling around with my period cramps.YES,IT'S THAT TIME OF THE MONTH AGAIN.Wonderful?Absolutely(: BLISS I'M TELLING YA.[roll eyes] HUHUHU.

I'm off,fucktards

2006-12-21T14:37:00.000+08:00

New layout.Just some random layout I found on blogskins.Hmm.

I've been crying like crap for 2 days.It's not a good feeling at all.A simple movie like CLICK which had the words "Family comes first" and I was moved to fucking tears.What is wrong with me?And the part whereby the guy keeps rewinding the part when his dad said "I love you,son",I know I don't want to be that guy.Hmm,whatever.Whoever is reading this most probably won't understand.

I'm off

2006-12-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

I didn't feel like picking up phone calls today nor replying smses.So whatever.

Friendship is not just about having fun.It's about the connection.It's about being able to share.It's about trust.It's about honesty.It's about the truth.It's about LOVE.It's deeper than that,assholes.I'm not gonna be pushed around and I'm not gonna accept the shit that you pretend to care.

I told Mikoh I'd take a bullet for any of my family and friends.Wahoooooo.I really mean that.Be happy dear loved ones.Wahooooooooooo.

I'm fucking random.Band camp was a bitch.A MAJOR BITCH.end of story.

2006-12-18T17:18:00.000+08:00

I've been blogging a lot lately and I think it's the only thing that keeps me from being bored=/

I don't know what's gotten into me but I seem not to trust people as much as I did last time.Shrugs.

I used to like you very much,as a friend.But now,I don't like you at all.

Fuck it,Erza is crapping!

2006-12-17T20:54:00.000+08:00

Today went out with Saz and her mom.Rau was suppose to be there.But that Meletop Boy had fever.Message pon tak reply eh Rau.Jahat.Hahaha.But today was fun.Eventhough the bus ride was freaking 2 hours,it was still fun.Dgn Saz punyer merepek.Finally ate my LJS!WAHOOOOOOOOOO:D Happy abes.Lazy to blog into details ah.

Why won't Malays admit that they are well,Malays as stated in their IC?Why do they have to beat about the bush and say "Oh,I'm not pure Malay.I'm Bugis/Javanese/Chinese/(Other Races) and Malay." WHY DO YOU HAVE TO SAY THAT?!I really don't get it.Your IC still states Malay at the end of the day and who cares how many type of races blood you got running through your vein.Your bloody is still MAJORITY of it Malay.One look at you and people know AH HAH!You're Malay.People will HARDLY noticed that TEENIE WEENIE ITSY BITSY PUNY side of you that isn't Malay.I don't know why all of us can't be Naufal from Psykes and just say I'm Asian and I'm proud of it like how we all should.

Okay,that's all I wanted to say.
Quote from Naufal taken from his song Empty Canvas.

LOVE~

2006-12-16T20:39:00.000+08:00

MESMERIZED

Boy,i just hope one day you look my way/
Cause everytime I see that smile flashing it just makes my day/
Your smile's too sweet I think I could get diabetes/
I think I'm losing my mind over you/
Good grief!/
I dunno this feeling inside of me but I always want you here/
Everytime i think of you it makes me smile from ear to ear/
Who knows?Only God knows maybe one day we'll be together.

Your soulful singing,boy it's got me mesmerized/
Every hour every minute I just fantasize/
Hoping my dreams would soon become a reality/
But hold up I need to check back into reality/
It's silly of me thinking you'd soon serenade me with your piano playing/
So i guess it's time for me to just stop dreaming/
Dunno when I'd get over you but I don't think it be soon/
Cause boy,damn,your face glows just like a shiny dubloon

Sitting all alone wishing you were right there/
Scribbling your name on my notebook and then out of the window, I would just stare/
Wondering why I can't get you out of my head/
I think of your voice and smile even when I get to bed/
My dreams are mostly all about you/H
oping and wishing one day this would all be true/
Really boy you've got me hypnotized/
You're hot as lava but as cool as ice

I walk into the mall and guess who I saw?/
Sitting right there was the number one boy I adore/
But damn it I get the shock of my life/
Some other girl was already in your arm/
I wondered how I was gonna survive/T
rashed and bumped out that was how I felt/
I can't believe once upon a time you were the one that made me melt/
I really wish it didn't end like this/
Damn how I wish I could change all this

Lyrics by:Erza Efiera

Aren't you guys shock?Well this is a little something I put together when I was bored.I never really thought about a chorus.I find it more like a story.A poem,you could say that.But it's kinda more of a song..Just without a chorus.Well not yet at least.Haha.Well so know you guys know what I've been up to during holidays.

Raurau is sick): So he doesn't know whether he'll get well enough by tmr to come and join us.Raurau better get well.If not lack one MELETOP person.Hahaha.Kidding(:

Talked to Mikoh just now.It was absolute BLISS talking to her(: Wahoooooooo.She's fun and crappy:DLove that bitch!

It's absolute BLISS when I talk to Saz,Mikoh,Hash,Nenek Lina(haha!),Fiona and Raurau:DI feel so ME:D wahoooooooo.Lovelove

I'm off!

LOVE~

2006-12-15T22:08:00.000+08:00

Today I slept till 1040 hrs without even like waking up in between my sleep.Slept at 2am this morning.Wonder why I was that lethargic.Hmm,oh wells.The only reason I woke up was because of a certain man name Muthu from Courts who called to find my dad.wtf!

Met mom at 1730hrs at her workplace and then met dad to go to Swissotel Merchan Court.Dad finally signed his papers for the new job at the hotel.So byebye Fullerton Hotel for him in February.The pay is better but,I won't get autographs and meeting famous ppl as often anymore):

Talking to Saz and Rauzan is LOVE(: Both gila.Rau quiet sometimes but biler gila datang...ABES!He cannot stop with his BOMB! and AH AH AH!MELETOP! And Saz always comes up with crazy things like "kalah pekat teh bapak aku" and if you don't respond "pukol lalat pe?" Hahahaha.The best people you can get ever(: Meeting Rau and Saz this Sunday.HAPPY HAPPY(:Yayyyyyyyyyy.

Very much that is all.I'm off!WAHOOOOOOOOO

LOVE~

2006-12-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

Today was a lucky/unlucky day sort of thing.

First,I overslept till 11am so there was no use for me to go band.Wonderful.No one woke me up.Geez.

But I guess I got lucky because I managed to meet Rachel Ong Wei-Lin(Rachie Pachie!!:D:D:D) at Vivo.Yes,today had a Vivo date.Fun fun fun.I like Rachie Pachie's new hair.Very pretty!Both were searching for dressy tops.Sadly I didn't find any that I liked.Went from Forever 21 to Mango to Principles to Topshop to every other ladies shop you can think of but I still didn't find any.Geram abes.I saw the nicest pointy flats at Pull and Bear!AND THE DISPLAY SHOE WAS MY SIZE.omg.bloody shit.Too bad I had no $80 for spare change with me.Menggeramkan banget la sial.Nvm,I will get it one day.I will I WILL!Okay so I had to leave at 5.Met mom then met dad at Raffles Place.Here comes the unlucky part...

I WENT TO VIVO AGAIN!WTF!My parents thought I was hanging around town with Rachie Pachie so they suggested vivo instead.Omg,I was so pissed but I just shut up.My bad anyway.I didn't tell them the truth.HEH.So unluckyyyyy.nvm

okay so that's very much it.

People judge you whether you like it or not.People who are skeptical exist whether you like it or not.People talk bad about you whether you like it or not.People will fight for their own importance whether you like it or not.People will be people.Most people are the same.There's absolutely no saint amongst us.

The Sexy Boy.Pinch THE ass.I bet no one gets it(:
Your smile kills me and it puts me in a better place called,heaven.Your voice is soothing and it puts me to a good night's sleep.Seeing YOU just puts me in a moment called EUPHORIA<3

2006-12-13T18:37:00.000+08:00

Did you forget to tell me "I Love You" before going?Or was it really over last night?~

No no,don't get my wrong!I didn't go through any break up last night or anything!It's just taken from a song I penned down last night.That's all(:

Today Fik,Fana and Fathin came over.The lovely cousins.We just chilled at my place for awhile.Then Fana updated her iPod.Then after that blahblahblah.Fik is still irritating=/ Whatever!Had lunch with them.Mom made Fried Chicken,Asam Pedas Ikan(gerek abes!) and Fried Veggies.ASAM PEDAS IKANNNNNNNNNN:DOkay,sorry.Gonna ram the same thing for dinner later.YAFOOOOOOOOOOO.

Bit by bit,I'm losing you.I'm scared one day I wouldn't know you anymore.

2006-12-11T21:14:00.000+08:00

I'm back from KL:D

Finally.I was dying without late night online conversations with lovely gila people online(: YAHOOOOOO.

I can't be bothered to update my trip.All I know is I had fun and did a lotttttttt of shopping and bought a lot of stuff.And one absolutely priceless thing my aunt bought for me.Gucci shades.YAFOOOOOOOOOO.okay I'm off.

LOVE~

2006-12-08T20:00:00.000+08:00

I'm off to KL in about 2 hours.VROOM VROOM!Haha!Omg,I feel so retarded.I hope I get internet over at the hotel later): I CANNOT SURVIVE WITHOUT THE INTERNET.I cannot survive without crapping with Saz for one day!Haha.

If I get network connection over in KL,I promise I will blog.But if I don't then I have to say,MISS ME WHILE I'M GONE THOUGH IT'S JUST FOR 3 DAYS.WILL SOMEONE LOOK AFTER MY BLOG AND MYSPACE?Eh that rhymes!Haha:P

Okay,that's all I have to blog.wheeeeeeeeeeee

LOVE~

2006-12-07T13:45:00.000+08:00

It's always THIS and THAT but never US.

I talk in codes which makes Saz kpo and gets Saz guessing.Huahuahua.And never EVER do a bet with me.You will confirm lose:P RIGHT,SAZ? HAHAHAHAHA.gerek la seh.

I'm mixing with people outside school.I'm mixing with people from myspace.I'm mixing with hiphop kids specifically.IN WHAT WAY DOES THAT BOTHER YOU?grrrrrrrrr,people sometimes.NYEHHH.whatever.I don't like 45% of people at school.TOO BAD.One more year and I'm out.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEE.

2006-12-06T17:07:00.000+08:00

Topic:Staying Humble(chosen by Saz)
8 bars each person

Efiera:
I've worked my way up to get into the scene/The only to be in it is to stay humble and never mean/I put in every bit of effort,my bloody sweat and tears/And it was all worth it in the end cause I overcome my fears/I never thought I could be where I am/But I had the support of friends to remind me where I stand/Shove all unconstructive criticisms aside/Just stay strong as long as you know what's rite

Saz:
i was once a dreamer who thought i was a rapper/i listen to everything that can make me better/realising my dream could be true/i climbed the stairs of challenges and knocked the walls of obstacles/catching up with gigs is what i do most/just to get my Eyes on the ones i respect/i've always wanted to be in the ring/and now,i believe i aint longer dreaming

It was so early in the morning I couldn't think properly.
Thus my very pathetic verse):
Nvm will try to work on it.
Once I get my hands on my PERSONALIZED rhymebook from jasmine.
Love my CP.
she's doing it for me.

Your smile kills and it puts me in heaven~
Mister Sexy Smile.
YAHOOOOOOOO:D

2006-12-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

Saz and I were bored and we decide to battle.Freestyle.Damn,that girl's got skills!I don't hate her okay?(:

Saz:
if you think its easy to rhyme,than think again.
i know you fake emcees are creating a scene with your so Called dope beats.
bwah! i tell you,as a new comer,i can do more shit!
**,*** you name it sirr..
i wont be dead even you juice me and stir.
dont try dont test or i'll be ur worst nightmare.
if i happen to see you online,
i would just stare

Efiera:
I never said rhyming was so easy/Girl don't you dare put words in my mouth or I'll break you up damn queasy/If you're thinking you're so fly and wild,hold up I got something to say/Cause I don't really think you're really an emcee who sees things my way/You're just one of them,tryna make it into the scene/One of them posers who really belong in the rubbish bin/I hope i make you choke with the lines i'm dropping/You better get ready cause my lines are well poppin'

Saz:
ehey. dont try dont test.
i've said before and i believe you aint the best.
you said you've got ur rhymes poppin,
why do i see you shaking on stage maynee?
i can coLLabo with him or him.
how bout you girl?
claiming to be in Platform 7
nah! i bet abg ____ gonna faint and float to heaven!

Efiera:
Whoa whoa,you tryna put me down now miss know it all/But hold up get a life,you're just nth but N-A-T-O balls/I be joining platform 7 so what you gotta problem?/At least i ain't no poser just like you and them/Abg ___ would be sent to heaven just for one reason/I've got the sickest flow and i'm the best all season/Your rhyming is whacked just like my grandma's teeth/I hope you get beefed right after this

Sazlyn:
jyeap. say wat u wana say and i can go 'watever'.
watch your words when you Call me names.
if im a balls of NATO, den u've got NO balls for chicks to lick on!
i tried to sound nice,but it seems you're making things worst.
platform 7 isnt for you mang.
grow up and do get your dictions right,dick!
more vulgarities to come once you step on my line.
abg ____ knows whats best
and so as **!

Efiera:
I'll step over your line now c'mon bring on your vulgarities/Is that all you got in your poor book of vocabularies?/I don't think you get the message I'm bringing across/People like you thinking you're the big fat boss/In this world of hiphop,people like you deserve no shit/You don't deserve the respect.Nuh-uh not one bit/If you think this is where my insults for you are gonna end/Then slap yourself bitch,It only has just begun.

Saz:
aite aite watever it is/its my rhymebOok and you have no f-ing rights to say a word/you're just a sore loser who needs attention in myspace/if its true than you lose face!/________ or fuck wat shit is that mayne?/saw you u commented on someone to COllaborate/i guess its more like a stomach ache!/ah,im making my way to ___,wana come along mang?

Efiera:
Damn shit girl,is that how you wanna play?/Hold up,first off I'm telling you,your rhymes are so gay!/I see you're making your way to ______/Be careful,cause only dopes are allowed and you might just be burned/You ain't got no flow just like a drained out river/You rhymes gives me a headache just like them posers/I've got every rights to say what I gotta/Haven't you heard of freedom of speech,Nuh-uh?

Saz:
i know im dope thats why im there/you're jealous cos __'s just gonna stare at you/now,pls give me way cos i need space/more space to write rhymes/more space to spit shit/now ___,this shit is FOR you/fools!/now i wana say goodbye and thanks for your time!

Efiera:
Wait,you're already quitting and saying goodbye?/I told you,you ain't so fly/You think you're the best in the hood/But guess what?Once you rap,I think they'd dumb you in their car boot!/Stop with the itty-bitty talk and the need for space/You're just afraid you might lose your face/I guess you're about to choke and lose now/So pack your bags and get out of town.

No one wins tonight.
We both tired.
Both drop 5 verses.

*Certain things have been editted.especially those "____".We don't want freestyling to be made too personal!

2006-12-05T22:14:00.000+08:00

I've known Saz for 7 weeks.And I quote Saz "7 weeks like 7 years".I absolutely agree.I felt like I've known her for a looooooooooooong time.I've seen her only twice but I talk to her almost everyday and I can just talk about my troubles whenever I need to.It is a happy thought(= Friends are hard to please.Good friends are hard to find.Best friends are hard to cherish.That's what I think.Not that I don't appreciate my besties okay!You'll get what I mean sooner or later.

Today,I had a sudden emo moment.Don't know what was up either.Hmm.But I hope things get better.Oh wells.

I liked it better when I didn't know who you are.
I liked it better when I didn't call you my friend.
I liked it better when I didn't add you in my contacts.

I LIKED IT BETTER BEFORE!!

2006-12-05T13:58:00.000+08:00

Sleeq-MoneyMaker

Sleeq-Gimme That

Sleeq-Pililah Aku

Sleeq-Almost But

Rauzan&Zul Mystroe-(RAU,WHAT'S THE TITLE!)

Rauzan&Roze-Always Be Loved

Enjoy the videos(:

2006-12-05T10:55:00.000+08:00

Best Friend by Richard J ft. Monique is a niceeeeeeeeeeeee song.Touching giler punya la siol.Monique has got the sweetest vocals(: And Richard's diction,don't need to say already.DOPEEE!okay,i said it:D Okay,you know I'm tuned to moron mode.

Everyone's falling in love.WHY?Saz is now in loveeeeeeeeeee!GASPS.oh Rau also in love.HUAHUAHUA.Saz is in love with a comelcutemuterabakpunya person.Haha!You will never find out.Heard that Hash and Lina were guessing yesterday.Haha!hmm.Maybe I should also fall in love.NOT!hahaha.okay,i'm crapping:D

Today will be another boring day.Gonna FINALLY start on my 13 homeworks:D K power!

Let's all fall in love over and over again with the same person~

2006-12-03T23:20:00.000+08:00

Had a really great time yesterday and today:D
let's just do a quick update.

Yesterday:
Went to the family's chalet and it was good seeing all the relatives.Had barbecue.Food was good.Fell sick.So did Aiman.Rested.Ate again.Bathed.Slept.Woke up.OKAY,NEXT DAY.

Today:
Woke up and I saw hady had made a 180 turn during his sleep.Interesting boy.hahahaha.So in the morning,woke up and then went to Wild Wild Wet with Hady,Aiman,Fathin,Fikri and Abg Rizal.DAMN KECOH OKAYYY.But was damn great fun with the cousins<3333333 style="font-style: italic;">Rabak giler babi nyer.K then came the part whereby i was in a "cannot go for anymore gigs" situation today.But I made a bargain so i did in the end.

Part 2:
Met Saz at waterfront with her mom!I'VE GOT 4 WONKA BARS BTW FROM HER(: thanks saz!Met Naufal to collect my psykes EP!banyak terima kasih,naufal!and sorry for the many 2 dollar notes.Saz sedap ajer panggil Naufal."NAUFAL!EP!"hahaha.Nasib Naufal faham la seh.Saz met up with Richard J to ask for her Psykes EP.ended up he forgot and he said to saz "ASK RAU AH!".tsktsktsk.Saz and I made a lot of jokes and crapped a lot.rabak kebabai.We made fun of the bunch of heavy dolled up no nothings groupies beside me.They didn't even know where they could buy the Psykes EP.YEESH!

So performance all was great.Akeem,Zul,Sleeq and Rau were the bomb!Videos will be uploaded soon.Rau did a couple of new tracks.Baik ah,Rau.Sleeq made a great "comeback" after their longggggggg break due to syarif's o levels.Rau did his Always Be Loved song.NICENICE(: and the other new tracks.Awesome performance by alllllllll the performers.

After performance was gonna leave then Rau was like "eh going home eh?Wait ah i go take my back" So saz and i though maybe he is going home too so go back with him.So we wait and wait and wait,end up he only wanted to just chitchat a bit with us.Mak Saz nak gik clubbing ngan Rau seh~ HAHAHA.okay,nvm.Then left.SO HOME IT IS.

OK DONE
LOVE~

2006-12-01T14:54:00.000+08:00

Rain.Fever.Sore Throat.Flu.No one to talk to.Bad happenings.
Put all that together and you get a very emo me.And also a sick girl):

Thanks fo being there fo me, my life is so much better
You said you'll always be around and never let me go
It's the little things you know about me though I never show
You can see my tears, even when the weather's raining
You can sense my fears, even though i'm not complaining
But when you hear this song, can you tell what I'm feeling
Day or night, rain or shine, its you when it comes to thinking

Adapted from Crimson Coalition's Baby I Swear

The song is absolutely nice.Syugah and Serenade's voices are absolutely amazing.And Fatal's got great flow.Do check it out and show some love for BNF! go to www.myspace.com/brandnewfeeling. OKAY,THANK YOU(;

Diana has done some studying while I have not.And i feel so guilty.Haha whatever!I don't really care.

Tmr's family bbq.I'm excited!COUSINS COUSINS<3

Aight,I'm out.

LOVE~

2006-11-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

Everyone in this world is important and we should stop being humble about what be do.I'm not saying you got to put your head up really up high till your nose touches the sky but just be PROUD and HAPPY with what you do.Don't get what I'm trying to say?I'll give you a scenario!Let's name the two people in my story Jack and Bill.

Jack:Hey!You're really good at what you do.
Bill:Nah,nono.I'm just a butcher.it's really nothing.I just cut meat all day.
Jack:Hello?How can you say that?If it wasn't for you butchers we would all be eating a cow WHOLE!

Get me?If you don't,omfg you're fucking stupid and pls get a life.Haha,just joshing.Hehe.

I came to think about some stuff just now.I know we should be honest with the ones we love most.But do we always have to be so honest that it can hurt?Do we always have to tell the truth even if it hurts the ones we love so bad?I'm not making sense.Fuck it.

LOVE~

2006-11-29T22:31:00.000+08:00

Maybe one day not too far away we can turn all our dreams into memories~

That line is just stuck in my head.From Bobby Tinsley's-I'm Missing You.Nice song!(:

Saz is apparently not around to entertain me online.She's away zapin-ing and silat-ing her life away on stage at SCH!wooohooo,my sexy friend can dance zapin la dey! I miss hanging out with Saz last Saturday.It was good seeing her,Hash and Mikoh.It's that feeling i longed for during the holidays.Just the feeling of being around friends that you're really comfortable with and can just let loose(: I want to see those 3 again.Then we can together SMACK THATTT~ and become the KECOHRABLE FOURSOME AGAIN(:

Listening to Canon In D right now.I don't know why.But it has been on my playlist for quite awhile.Diana and I are over): I'm marrying my donkey and she can go to hell with her monkey.HAHAHAHA(: I'm so terrible.

Nerice is absolute fun to talk to.Her pure innocence and not so innocent.LOL.I'm not making sense.NEVERMIND.

Gonna collect my album this Saturday(hopefully) from Naufal.Then I can finally enjoy my psykelecticz EP even if Saz has listened to it for A WEEK by then! GRRRR.

Okay,I'm off.

Your presence makes me feel secure
I really love to see you smile.
I really wish you were mine again
All the stupid mistakes I made in the world.

2006-11-29T11:17:00.000+08:00

LOVE LOVE THIS SONG(:
goes out to all my besties,cliquemates and all of my friends out there.I love you guys till death.

I know the sound is not very good,but if you guys listened closely you'd figure out the lyrics(:
"a friend is better than that"

I miss band plenty):

2006-11-28T21:08:00.000+08:00

Musical Evening 2006 was absolutely BLISS(:

Eventhough all of us were tired from running around,carrying instruments,the long waiting time and the hectic rehearsals,WE ALL ENJOYED IT IN THE END(: Because every single blood,sweat and tears we put in PAID OFF.

I LOVE CGSSB.I will miss Musical Evening.BADLY):

I dunno why I was pissed for a moment during Musical Evening yesterday though.Firstly,stockings tore TWICE and then some other things had to happened and it pissed me off badly.But!My lovely sec 1 junior,Nerice made it all better with her stupid slangs and jokes!I love that girl la can!Hahaha(:

Gave Diana a ride home yesterday.And that silly darling fell into a drain and bumped into my parents' car.SO MUCH FOR TRYING TO IMPRESS.haha!

I LOVE MY BELOVED HUSBAND DIANA KASWADI!I PROMISE I WILL NEVER GO HONEYMOON-ING WITHOUT YOU EVER AGAIN OKAY?PLEASE PROMISE NOT TO CHEAT ON ME EITHER!
hahahaha omg,that girl is so irritatingly cute(:

K,i'm off.TIRED

2006-11-26T13:45:00.000+08:00

SPEAKEASY YESTERDAY WAS AN ABSOLUTE BLAST(:
Especially with Mikoh,Saz and Hash as company!
We are like the kecohrable foursome!
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1.Alyph of Sleeq and I(He cheated at first.He wanted to tiptoe!hahaha.)
2.Hash,I,Saz,Alyph,Mak Saz and Mikoh.
3.Rauzan performing while sitting down.
4.Rauzan and the absolutely cool Mak Cik!SHE PUT HER BNF's up!Yay,she's part of the movement!hahaha
5,6&7.Mikoh needed 3 attempts to get the picture right!By the 3rd picture,Rau and I were tired of smiling thus my scrunched face and Rau without his BNF's up!
8.Rau and I.Applause for Saz pls.She only needed ONE ATTEMPT.
9.Saz and I.Saz is crazy lovely company!
10.I and Hash.She is absolutely adorable!
11.The Cool Mak Cik with Naufal aka Young of Psykelecticz.

WOOHOO.

Had fun yesterday(:
Cabbed to SAM with Mikoh.
Saz and her mom were waiting for us outside(:
Saz is awesome!
It wasn't awkward at all when I saw her.
It's like dah kenal lamer like that.
hahaha.

Then wait wait around.
AND I SAW ANDREA<3333333
I've missed that woman plenty!
woohoo.
She's still so small and adorable(:

Then ok got in seated.
Performance was awesome!
Chaz Ali did really great despite his lips being swollen after an accident.
Poor him.
But yup,I thought he did a wonderful job.
Rau performed millionwear with alyph!
YAYY.
i like that song!
freaky z came along later!
just to promote his performances.
hahaha.
but he is damn cute la can!
PSYKES LAUNCHED THEIR EP.
LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE.
tapi aku amat bodoh aku luper nak beli.
memang mintak kener smack aku ini.
K after all the performance took pictures!

took pic with alyph.
haha,he is hilarious.
TIPTOE!
playcheat ah alyph.
hahaha.
k,alyph's a very nice guy.
he was like You guys coming down on 3rd dec!Come down ehk go eh!
nice guy.
very friendly.

saz took pic with syarif and psykes also.

RAU DIDN'T RECOGNIZE ME AT FIRST
GERAM SAYA.
fie:rau kenal tak?kenal tak?
rau:tak.tak kenal[gives the who are you face!]
fie:eheh saz kau tengok dier punyer blog admin pon dier tak kenal!
rau:OH OH OH KENAL KENAL!relax relax[gives the scared face]
HAHAHA.
funny la that guy.
Rau made Saz mom do the BNF sign!
HAHAHAHA.
so cute la(:
as you can see from the picture.
rau was like,pls mak cik!satu je mak cik!plsplspls.
hahaha.

K,then after that went outside.
meet freakyz.
he is a nice guy too.
hilarious as well.
All the great people!

Then walked to dhoby ghaut with the kecohrable kids.
hahaha.
SMACK THAT!
lol,nvm.
inside joke;D
MY LEG WAS SO PAINFUL LA CAN.
hash said i walk macam dancing.
siak jek!
then at Dhoby Ghaut station..
Saz prasan Naufal and I prasan Aidil/Malek.
HAHAHA.
we were singing the intro to poltergeist(remix)
KWANG KWANG.
kecoh kecoh.
I wonder what saz's mom thought of us ehk.
HAHA(:

k,that was all that happened.
great night indeed.

2 THUMBS UP TO ALL THE PERFORMERS.
AWESOME.
AWESOME AWESOME!

2006-11-24T19:54:00.000+08:00

Today was a happysad damn somehow.I don't know how but yes it's like that.Complicated?Not really.

I woke up at 6am with the worse cramps ever!I was *still* rolling on the floor and it sucked balls because I was already late for band.Left home finally.Reached band 15 mins late.Thank God that the band was moving up their instruments and stuff when I reached.Had 2 rounds of rehearsals.I think everyone did a good job today.*Applauds* I think my juniors are doing really well.And!Nerice is absolute fun to sit next to.She is crappy/crazy/naive/innocent/gossipy in her own way.And I like all of the characters of her I stated.Hehe.Innocent but very gossipy sometimes!Haha!

During band's break of first round rehearsal,we all went down to bandroom.And we had Truth Of Dare.People who played:Hanisa,Adilah,Priscilla,Belle,Aishah,Other Trumpeters and yours truly.I had to do a SHABOOYA CHEER and HUMP EMI.I dunno why I got all the most silly things.Hanis had to kiss priscilla on the cheeks and armycrawl her way to brina and hug her.HAHAHA.Priscilla had to kiss hanis on the cheeks too.It took her two tries though.Adilah had to act sexy in front of the piano.Belle had to seduce fadhilah and she said PEOPLE CALL ME SEXY BUT YOU CAN CALL ME TONIGHT.HAHAHA(: Aishah had the ask the bookshop lady AUNTIE I WANT MCFLURRY.hahahahahahahaha.Today was fun!

After band,we were supposed to help percussion carry instruments.Wanted to help diana carry some chime thing or whatever but I was screaming my life away because I knew I was gonna fall.So priscilla helped me.Then PRISCILLA FELL 5 STEPS DOWN right in front me!I was so shocked I didn't say any other words except OMG ARE YOU OKAY ARE YOU OKAY ARE YOU OKAY PRIS?Haha!Thank God she was okay!Polished instrument after that.And I was off!

Okay,that's all that happened today.
Pretty ok.

LOVE~

HAHAHAHA,I'M SUCH A FUCKER!

ilu.
And i'm happy we still talk to each other.
We'll act like the world is ours,won't we?~

2006-11-23T21:00:00.000+08:00

One by one,they are fading away and new ones are coming replacing them in my heart.Do you get it?Forget it.Only I'll understand I guess.

I just sort of noticed something today.Friendships that last for an eternity is because it was sincere from the start.Friendships that don't last long is because either one party or both are just making use of each other for entertainment or their own insecurities.That's what I feel at least.I mean everyone is entitled an opinion right?Don't take it to heart what I say here.That's just what I feel about friendships lately.I mean,when I think of people that I were close to and people I used to hang out with and now we NEVER go out anymore and we feel weird when talking to one another,I ask myself WHAT HAPPEN?Did I change?Did she/he change?Was she/he even sincere from the start?

I shouldn't be complaining too much.It's not like as if I lost my whole social circle.It's just that 2 or 3 friends that I cared straight from the heart but we don't even talk much now.What more hang out.

Today,I almost cried.Guess why?Because I couldn't go for the farewell because of my menstrual cramps and my stupid busted back.My menstrual cramps was at its worse today.I used to raise an eyebrow when Hanis said her cramps were so bad that she could roll on the floor.Then today,I finally experienced it.I was rolling my life away from my bedroom to parents bedroom and back again more than 10 times.Someone shoot me!

That's all for today.I'm off.

LOVE~

2006-11-23T16:33:00.000+08:00

Everybody's blog is getting bitchier by the ~~minute~~SECOND.They are all talking about one another,they know it but yet when facing one another they act like normal and nothing ever happened.Is the capability to blog making people nuts in one way or another?Having facades and what nots.It's a little scary=/

As for Myspace,it's becoming a fucking competition.Who gets the most comments,who has the most number of friends on their list,who has the prettiest editted pic and blablabla..WTF?!This is absolutely nuts.I hate people who add me and they shut their traps.What's the purpose of adding me up then?![starts chanting]competition,competition.HMM.

Talked to Saz and Mikey last night.Quite fun.Mikey is a lil bit merepek but nvm.He's still the big irritating bro that The O Fam loves(: Haha!He was being a moron and asked,I LOST MY MUSCLE ANYONE SEEN IT?So I answered,Up your anus turn right turn left right again and straight up and bingo! And bloody hell that boy..he said..I'm dead,I have no insides!That boy is irritating shit i swear!Hahaha.

2 MORE DAYS TO SPEAKEASY!
2 MORE DAYS TO SEEING THE O FAM!
2 MORE DAYS TO SEEING ANDREAAAAAA!
and of course..
2 MORE DAYS TO SEEING MIKOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I'm done here.

LOVE~

2006-11-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

Dad got a job offer at a new hotel.He is in dilemma whether to accept it or not.I guess it's pretty hard for him.He's been working at Fullerton Hotel for a long time and he is comfortable with that place.However,the pay for the job offer is much better and we could probably lead a better life if he gets the job.Hmmm.Dad's meeting the General Manager of the hotel on Friday at Liang Court Starbucks.What a cool General Manager I'd say!I mean c'mon,Which GM would meet at STARBUCKS?Haha!OMG,I really need to get a hold of myself!Haha.

Today was a boring day.I needed to rest my busted back so I coudln't help out with the decoration of the band room and making pompoms with Hanis.Haha!I spent half my life sleeping.Other than that I was sms-ing Mikoh and Saz.OH!Diana's back:D I missed her!Haha.

Tmr's Sec 4 farewell.Bet there's going to be all those tears.Believe it or not,I will miss the Sec 4s.No matter how naughty we are when we scrutinize them,disgusted by them,hate them for giving us punishment,they still taught us what we needed to know and still cared somehow or rather(:

Date with Mikoh this Saturday.I get to see The O Fam as well as BNF Family!This should be great.I get to see Saz!(:

Ok,I'm off for now!

2006-11-21T20:05:00.000+08:00

Today was one of my high happy happy days(: I saw all my darlings today<3 Mikoh,Syira and Gadis in order.Happy(: They are my dose of happiness.

Came down late for band today.I had a really terrible swollen back.Somehow,I sprained it yesterday night and it was pretty bad.Pretty scary.I could hardly get out of bed=/ but by 0845h i felt fine after the painkillers.So sprung out of bed,msged Hanis and rushed my butt to school.
Thankfully,when I reached school I wasn't disturbing the band or anything because they were having break!

Combined rehearsals started at about 1230h.I was pissed off because it was all supposed to be over by 1200 but I forgot all about it after being crazy and high with the bandmates.Haha.As usual,band always had to wait the longest.Blahblahblah.It's not fair!The dance get to rehearse COMPLETE but we only played our pieces like LESS THAN HALF.Like,whatever.BIAS!Nah,just kidding.The band is always very patient.No one grumbled today(:

After rehearsals,Miss Azilah ordered for us PIZZAS!Woohoo.Was nice of her.Canadian Pizza,I LIKE!Total of 8 boxes of Pizzas.Ate 2 pieces and I was so bloody full.

Packed instruments blablabla.Hanis and I volunteered to do the POMPOMS for Euphoniums and French Horn section!It's for the High School Musical Piece.Yup.This is gonna be fun.Hehe!

Left school after slacking around the band room for awhile.I managed to buy a top today.Hehe.Happy happy.Yayy.Rachel's not free for shopping tmr): Sad.Nvm,she promised B&J's next week anyway.Hurrah.

K,i'm off.Think I blogged quite a lot already today!

LOVE~

2006-11-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

Today,band practice was awesome(: Hanis is back and so is Adilah.YAHOO.Hanis is back and that means I don't have to take her place anymore for the solo.HURRAH.

Today I saw MIKOH,SYIRA AND GADIS ALTOGETHER<3 Finally,I saw all the cliquemates IN THE SAME DAY!<333333333333333333333 PLENTY.

Tmr there is combined rehearsals.I can no longer wait for 27th Nov.Esplanade!I LIKE I LIKE.woohoooo.Esplanade's dressing room is like a fucking hotel!FUCKING COOL(:

I'm off.
Sleepy.

2006-11-19T21:21:00.000+08:00

I need to open up my books and study soon.I have not touched on my holiday homework yet.So i think I better do it soon before it gets too late and before I know it I'll be burning the midnight oil on 020107.mmhmm.Going to put up my holiday homework up on the blog so that I can remember better.Haha.I think I really had no life in sec 3=/I just realized somehow.Monday to Thursday I'd finished class at 6.30pm.Travelling/Eating/Bathing Time.Study.Sleep.Study.School.DIE! Fridays,A LITTLE BIT MORE FREE THOUGH.haha..Whatever.I have to bear with the shit.Like Jasmine says,SUFFER THEN ENJOY.So true!Wise friend I have.

Today,hot topic with Saz is SCHOOL.haha.Okay I guess.

Okay,I'm off to put up my homework notice on my blog so that I'll remember.

LOVE~

2006-11-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

Bring It On All Or Nothing rocks like nothing.
I'm blogging for the 3rd time.
Bored):
Someone please watch step up with me!
Eventhough I know what happened because I read Naufal from Psykes blog about it.
Shit,I knew I shouldn't have read it the minute I saw the words STEP UP.
oh wells.

I finally had a proper conversation on MSN with Rauzan after so longgggggggg.The boy's been busybusybusy with photoshoots for the album cover.OH YEAH,WAIT PATIENTLY FOR HIS ALBUM.ALL THE TRACKS ARE DONE.AND JUST WAITING TO LAUNCH.k bestbest.Don't worry Rau.As Administrator of BNF blog I will promote your album habis2 ok.Hahaha.And you'll find the perfect picture soon for your album cover!Haha.

Saz went offline.Mikoh not online.Sekejap lagik saya nak tidor(: Elfa curled her hair!
STYLE STYLE.hahaha but temporarily only la.Wash then gone.It curls It's Hot and It lasts!
HAHAHA,BEYONCE ADVERTISEMENT xD

kk i should really get my sleep.
Night World

2006-11-18T23:44:00.000+08:00

I hate shopping in Singapore somehow or rather!I dislike it when the salesperson tags along behind you while you are walking around the shop.Don't they understand the term WINDOW SHOPPING?There's a reason why they came up with the word you know!People just want to look at things without any intention to buy because they might not like it.STOP FOLLOWING AROUND CAN?It's not as if someone's gonna steal a top/jeans/skirt/pants in the open!Especially when there's no fucking fitting room-___-" IRRITATING!

Oh yeah,I also absolutely despise the bloody WHATYOUCAMEINHEREANDYOULOOKATALLTHETHINGSMAKEMETAKEOUTBUTYOUARENOTFUCKINGBUYINGIT face.I hate I hate I hate.

You obviously know I had the worse shopping experience of my life.The girl walked behind so closely I almost wanted to shout at her YOU WANNA STICK TO MY BUTT INSTEAD?

Forget it.
I'm such a bitch tonight.

2006-11-18T20:36:00.000+08:00

My blog's been away for a couple of days due to my stupidity.I copied and pasted a new blogskin code onto my template just wanting to preview it again.And,I cleverly clicked SAVE TEMPLATE instead of PREVIEW.So it saved the new layout without my links AND my tagboard.I was too lazy of an ass to go get it done all over again so I just placed my blog as UNDER CONSTRUCTION.Fie is absolutely fucking amazing(: You know you want to say it.Haha!Somebody get this girl a gun,pls.

Band members finally had a good break.But it's only temporary.We had no band on Thrusday and Friday.So..break's all the way till the coming Monday.And then it'll all be intensive practices.Finally,concert on 27th.YAHOOO.I can hardly wait.Absolutely ecstatic.Haha.

I have to go now.Mikoh's not online): Gadis is up on myspace.Saz is the only that entertains me online right now):

2006-11-11T22:40:00.000+08:00

[EDIT]I was listening to My First Storybook and then I remembered about a close friend I lost 3 years ago.We used to be so close.I could really depend on her.I don't know what happened to her after we proceeded on to secondary school.I guess it was her inferiority towards me.We went to our 2 separate worlds like well you get my drift of what kind of secondary school worlds we went to right.Eversince then the way she talked to me it was all different.She thought that my tone was forever mocking what she was saying when I really wasn't.Honest.I asked about my other friends' opinion and they also said that there was nothing wrong with what I was saying.We just lost touch in the end and never spoke to her ever again because I changed my add and she thought I was purposely doing it to avoid her.She thought I did not want to have anything to do with a Selenger girl like her.Yes,I still remember what she said.And,it hurts me till today that she thought that was what I thought of her=/ Complicated?Maybe.

Come back,girl.
I miss you so much.
I need you back in my life.

seen you smile and cry,
and you never hold back,
reminisce those days made me recollect,
and i want you to know,
you will always be loved

Adapted from Rauzan's Always be Loved ft. Roze

You will always be loved~
[/EDIT]

2006-11-11T20:28:00.000+08:00

Today was another typical boring day.
Hanging out at gramp's crib.
Gosh,that's sure some oxymoron.
HANG OUT.GRANDPARENTS CRIB.
ok,I think my point is clear.

I started out my day waking up at 0930 when momsie dearest PURPOSELY vacuumed my room to wake me up
Fantabolous,ain't that?
Heck,I shouldn't be complaining.
It's good enough that she made breakfast for me today after 12903809123 days.
But still,I think she should've cut me some slack since it was only 0930 and it is afterall a SATURDAY=/
nvm that.

I headed for my piano lessons at 1230.
I finally finished my C:1 piece.
I still have not started on B:2 piece yet.
Another worry,I might not be having the same piano teacher next yr!
wtf.
My teacher's contract ends this yr.
So if she is not continuing next yr,it means I have to go through the process of getting used to the next teacher's style of teaching and blablabla.
Bloody shit.

Headed for gramp's house.
blablablabla.

Now I'm home.
Talking to Saz(:

2006-11-10T22:52:00.000+08:00

I'm super bored
and I had a pretty bad day today.

I dunno why but I don't seem to like it whenever my dad's at home.
He is uptight and lately,i find him very irritating.
Shit,what am I saying?
He is my dad afterall.
ho hum.
Controversial

I watched Da Vinci Code again today.
haha.
I loveeeeeeee that movie.

I'm talking about the most random stuffs.
Someone shoot me please!
Diana is so irritating.
And she loves my laughter a lot.
awwwwww,I love Diana.
HAHAHAHA(:

2006-11-09T10:41:00.000+08:00

A couple more hours before I get my butt to school for band.I kinda miss band pracs actually.I haven't been able to go because band pracs end at 1pm and my lessons usually end at 3pm.Irritating):

I really don't know what I feel right now.I feel a little bit pissed/stupid/happy/bored/irritated/high all together):

Lately,the word Depressed has been used with absolute lack of understanding of the real meaning of the word.And it's so irritating!Just because I write some sad things on my blog it doesn't mean I'm DEPRESSED,get it?I'm just a little down that day and upset.When you're DEPRESSED,you practically lose your fucking mind together with your appetite.Sheesh,fuck those stupid juniors of mind.YEESH.

Can't you tell?I'm in a very irritated state right now.Everything gets on my nerves.Don't know why.But yet I wanna be happy.

Oh gosh,I need to get a hold of myself.

love!

2006-11-08T21:41:00.000+08:00

come here!
what?
[wags the damn finger] fuck you![smacks forhead]

swear i wish i could do that to you!
giler should know who;D
i'm still not pleased with you.
yeah,sure.
the night before i was freaking pissed at you because of what you said.
yesterday night i felt so stupid being pissed at you because i was easily blinded by your words.
SO EASILY BLINDED.
and i don't even understand myself why i'm willing to do all this.
and guess what.
tonight,it's happening all over again.
i feel super irritated by you.
i still feel like you're using me.
AND!
if you become much more pushy,trust me,you'll get a surprise one fine day when you get on the internet.
cause as said by giler my meaness sudah terserlah.
DON'T EVER TRY ME OK.
JUST DON'T.

ughhh,ppl.
DEMANDING!
i cannot stand it.
maybe i shouldn't be such a brat afterall.
whatever!

forget it.
yesterday i went vivo city and i bought a green t-shirt.
then mommy came back and she bought the two t-shirts i wanted from converse!
green and black!
HAPPY(:

that's all folks.
love!

2006-11-08T18:01:00.000+08:00

Bloody oldie bio teacher.She saw me outside the staffroom and she went,"Why you NEH(never) come for bio lesson yesterday!you know got project right?" in the most fucked up english and manner.I wish I had my big sign with me that wrote Please Rot In Hell.it was done while i was "mugging" EOYs.Hahaha.Freaking cool:D I'll put my life on the line and I bet I wasn't the only one who wasn't at the bio lesson yesterday you MAFAKA!Try saying MAFAKA you'll figure what it means sooner or later.

OH!I made a great achievement today(: I went for my 8am lessons!LIKE FINALLY.Hahaha!Social studies and E Math.I was thinking about skipping E Math,but Randee and Syira convinced me to go.Peer pressure at its best.Haha.

I'm hooked on Sean Paul's We Play Rough ft. Cecile.
Somehow.
I don't know how.
Nvm.

I gotta go now!Dinner soon.Where's Sazzzzzzzz):

2006-11-07T22:20:00.000+08:00

i have interesting conversations with ppl like saz and mikoh.
you never know what we are gonna talk about.
HAHAHA:D

some say you're making use of me.
some say just forget it,don't even appreciate you.
but i say,we'll see how it goes.
hmm.

k,i'm crapping.
i'm off.
AU REVOIR

2006-11-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

TAGBOARD'S A SCREW UP CURRENTLY):
will be back up soon!

2006-11-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

I was listening to the song "Hurt" by Christina Aguilera today.
So as usual,I started singing that song.
Then slowly,as I truly understood the words I was singing, i felt tears running down my cheeks.
I finally understood the real meaning of that song.
As in the deep deep meaning.
I truly felt that song.

Same thing happened for "My First Storybook" by Rauzan.
The song's been on my playlist over and over again.
Things change.
It's true.
Even though we hate to admit it,we know sooner or later the situation will change.
Even friends will change.
No one wants friendship to fall aprt.
But just that ONE DAY,they would all fade away.
They will.
They will just drift away from your world.

My First Storybook is really a niceeeeeee and touching song.
Hits a nerve definitely.
mmhmm.

I'll put up the song.
I want you guys to hear it.
Really.

2006-11-06T09:48:00.000+08:00

changed blogskin(:
i like it.
i like imageless skin.
mm.

anyway,big thanks to gadis for helping out with the BrandNewFeeling blogskin!
cause my knowledge of html went karat yseterday):
so sad.
but i drew what i wanted the thing to look like and she did the codes for me.
view it ok?
CLICK
i'm the administrator now.
uh huh uh huh.
haha..
also thanks to saz for cheering me on.
mikoh as well.
hahahahaha:D
and gadis couldn't stop saying WHO'S YOUR DADDY last night.
irritating,bodoh!

k,i gotta go do up the BrandNewFeeling blog.
needs a lot of work.
i'm out!

2006-11-05T19:48:00.000+08:00

I need a blogskin soon:(
MY BLOG IS GETTING KANINA-ISHLY UGLY:(

when my blog is all pretty,i update ok?
off to find a blogskin.

2006-11-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

i find myself hard to say the word i LOVE you.
i find myself hard to accept it when ppl tell me "i LOVE you"
the words been so overly used that ppl forget the meaning:(
it's so painful.
sigh.

know what i'm trying to say?
gah.
ppl say i love you like as if it's just another ordinary word.
just like the word hate.
the true meaning of the word has been misunderstood:(

i don't think i will be saying i LOVE you in a long time.
that's why i just show this sign <3.
mm